I finally have pics!

Finally, here is a pic of Firefly and Serenity (and Elvis). My maiden voyage was a 40 minute drive through Portland's eastside just as it was getting dark. It was too dark to take a pic when I made it home. I wanted a chance to practice left and especially right turns before i got on the streets but there was no time. I just had to get them home.

I will go to a nearby parking lot and practice backing up for a while before I load it and take it to my brother's. I'll spend the next couple days getting her ready to go and closing down the house. But today is Thanksgiving so once I'm at my brothers, I am going to relax.

Oh, and before I leave, I could not believe the guys at the service center yesterday. They all loved my truck and even spent time telling me about the gauges and various buttons.

I love driving Firefly. The more I do, the more comfortable I feel. But the best part is that I feel like she is the ONE. Like she was waiting for me to come get her.

Talk later!

I HAVE BEEN FUNDED!!

It took all day. I got word from Tim to go pick up my check, I took it to my credit union and they released the whole check into my accounts. No more waiting. I was holding my breath the whole time. I was waiting for something to happen, some block, someone saying, "you'll have to wait a little longer".

So, slowly, I cheered but I was too busy to think, I just needed to keep moving. After the bank, I took a cashier's check for my trailer to Blue Dog RV. I pick it up tomorrow afternoon.......

WITH MY TRUCK! I bought a truck!! She's a Dodge and diesel and a bunch of other good stuff. I feel like I went into a lion's den. I entered the men's club. I mean, guys everywhere... it's a TRUCK store for god's sake. Trucks everywhere. All trucks. And they are all so big I can't climb into them without help from, you got it, some of the guys!

Sorry I didn't get a picture yet. I barely got to the bank and back before dark. Tomorrow, tags and insurance. And a STEP so I can get into it. She's a 2006 Dodge Ram 2500 with a Cummins diesel engine. I need a topper for her too.

Put that on the list. Oy

My truck is named Firefly and the trailer is Serenity. Someone may get the reference. Let me know if you do.

It's past bedtime and I need sleep but I want to blog. Grr. Why did I start a blog? Takes time. Too much time; but less time than a vlog. That is a time consuming, but fun hobby. I've got too many hobbies already. I am not a minimalist when it comes to hobbies. Probably something for the therapist there.

I love my crafts because I love getting into that creative state of mind. It's a zone. When I'm in that zone, i can be as tired as I am now, and keep going and going. I have to make myself go to bed.

I ordered supplies and equipment from Amazon but I'm going to have to get solar in AZ. Some of the things I wanted to get from Amazon would not arrive in time to leave Sunday so I took them off the list.

Okay, I'm going to have to give up the ghost and go to bed. I'll watch Debra Dickinson's YT live chat before I sleep. That'll give me pleasant dreams.

Love to all. Talk later. Pictures tomorrow!!!

I lied.

My closing continues. I was pretty mad but have calmed down some. I was suppose to be funded today but it didn't happen. Now I'm promised tomorrow.

I'm not going to go through the long list of things I need to do again. I still have to do them but in less time.

This is what's left. All the photos and artwork are going to my brothers for safekeeping.
Til tomorrow.......

Last night in my bed, last night of TV, last days on Depot St.

Last days on Depot St.

I hope this video posts. I used AirDrop again. I just love this tool! Open a photo or movie and share it to AirDrop. So simple. It 'boings' on my laptop and I can open it or share it here. Techno is fun and handy, isn't it?

Elvis is walking around the house gurrrrrring. The house has echos now and there is a lot of activity on the property. 13 years of stuff disappearing. A lifetime of accumulated possessions being dispersed. And I'm still taking too much. I'll disperse what's left myself. Nomad free piles or just people i meet around me who have a need that I can fill. 

Last night of TV? For awhile, yes. I'm watching Star Trek Next Gen with Picard. There are many seasons and i won't be seeing about half. That sh*t is 30 years old! Still holds up. 

Last night in this bed. It was my mom's and i love it but it is going to my daughter-in-law now. 

I hate to be cliche but it really is like giving birth. It's joyous and painful. Hallelujah, right?

I have gotten some last minute help with my record breaking closing. Loan officers and staff and Title Co. staff worked late Friday night. They did not have to do that. In fact, the bank gave permission for staff to work late. 

Now, I don't know who got all those people to work late on a Friday night, but somebody deserves angel wings. I went to escrow to sign docs on Friday about 1pm. I cried. So embarrassing, right?

Maybe someone took pity. They might be my angel. 

Most things like this involve an unknown angel or two.  We've all had moments like this. Right?

Well, I am so grateful to them. It means I will make it to KOKO meetup early. It also means I will have to get solar in AZ. I can live with that. I wanted to be all set up with solar but I will get it ASAP. I don't think I want to wait until next year's Van Build Fest. But, I'll be going anyway. I'll volunteer to do something there. 

Much to do so I'll be going now. Talk later.

I'm still shaky and I did actually sign some sheets of paper today

I'm exhausted! Elvis had a tooth removed and his teeth cleaned. In at 7:30 in the morning and out at 2:00. I teared up when the young woman brought him out to me.

You'd think he meant something to me.

OMG!! I just figured out Airdrop on my phone. I took a picture on my phone of Elvis and in the share menu I hit Airdrop and it sent it to my computer. OMG!
Haha! I'm doing it again.

OK, that is amazing. I'm going to do that some more. Not now, not now.
Just how much of a technical dummy am I? Oy... how did i not know about this before now?

The 'unending closing' should be a contender for the Guinness Book of World Records. I did sign papers today and I have to sign some more on Monday morning. If it all goes well, I'll be able to buy a truck Tuesday and my new home on Wednesday. I signed papers for it today as well. No wonder I'm  drained and weepy.

I'm leaving on December 1st or 2nd. I'd like to be in Quartzsite by December 6th. I will not have solar or lithium batteries. And I won't have more than a day or two to practice driving my rigs. Plus the gazillion other things i have to get done.
There will be a shift in my thinking once I leave this house. A forward motion. I'm not scared, I'm frustrated at my lack of organizing skills. I think I've got skills but that's really debatable. I can see that now. Why do I think I can herd cats and why don't people do as I say?

I WILL BE IN QUARTZSITE BY DECEMER 6TH. Yeah... I think I just took a deep breath. I think I'll take another. Ahhh...
I think I'm actually feeling happy. Loads to do. Just loads and loads.
Tomorrow!

You should be able to comment now. Wish I could say escrow is done but it is not.

I am trying very hard to keep calm. The state of Oregon has programs to monitor just about every business type. But there doesn't seem to be any checks and balances for anyone in the real estate business. I'm not an expert but without a lawyer and a lot of time, I can't fight what is happening to my house deal. I can't really explain the unbelievable incompetence and apathy on the part of the buyer's agent, the loan officers and appraisers. I can't prove anything and I have no agency to report this to or ask to investigate.

I really want someone to pay. I know revernge is unproductive but I want the behavior to be changed. That's different than revenge.

I think I fixed the comment problem. This blog has a lot of gadgets and settings. I'm learning about them as problems come up. Please leave comments. I've been looking forward to them and could not figure out why they weren't happening.
I also realize that there are not but a couple people viewing the blog. I'm am not good at promoting myself. My business has suffered because I don't like self-promotion.
I started this blog to keep my family and friends up to date on my plans and travels but I find that there are things I don't want certain people to read. Which boils down to there being subjects that I won't talk about.

I could post my email address but that could be very troublesome. I could get all kinds of weirdos emailing me. I've been told that this is a bad idea. I think I can email you if you follow me. I'll try that as soon as I can. If you want to contact me, follow the blog and let me know you want me to contact you in a comment.

I know this post is not very happy or uplifting. I apologize. I'm just feeling so used up right now. I'm still moving forward as if this deal is going through but I don't know when. I've made commitments in AZ. I don't want to drive in a hurry.
Debra, if you are reading this, I still have hope but the next 48 hours will determine my arrival at the meetup.
I just want to cry right now. I'm so full of anger and disappointment. I feel so cornered and helpless.

That's all for now.

Budda in the Cosmos and Raven and her chicks

This is Budda in my Cosmos patch.

This is Raven. She got so broody I thought she was about to die. I brought home two chicks from the feed store and gave them to her. Her eyes lite right up and she came alive. Those chicks saved her and it was a blast watching her raise them.

I know, dear friends, that you will understand

I'm pretty sad right now. My chickens just got taken away to their new home. It's better than the alternative of putting them all down but it was traumatizing for them and me and for Elvis.

Thinking about hearing them squawking in fear makes me choke up. And Elvis wouldn't come when I called him. He followed the cage all the out of the yard and nipped at Bertine's heels. He was trying to protect them. Or save them. I don't know but I know he didn't like what was happening.

I've been dreading this. I've had chickens for 10 years and some of my girls are old. The oldest one is about 6 years. I am a great chicken keeper. They get shredded carrots, apples and celery with cottage cheese and corn every morning. And fruit, ususally grapes, every afternoon. I let them roam the whole back yard which meant there was no grass left. They were never in a pen. They had a shed for a coop which gave them lots of room. They had two rain shelters. Yes, I totally spoiled them.

Chickens are really wonderful. Their feathers are softer than you might think and they make cooing sounds more than the cackling they are known for. They often squawk for a few minutes after laying an egg which I find fascinating. What evolutionary reason would cause them to do that? I've seen entries on discussion boards speculating about it but no one seems to know why.

I raised all my chickens from week-old chicks except four that I adopted. There are about six girls buried around the yard.

I haven't eaten store-bought eggs in a long time. I wonder if I'll notice the difference? I've got four left in the refrigerator. I remember eating the first egg from my hens years ago. The egg was so small. Tiny. But within a few months all my hens laid very large eggs. Bigger than large size store-bought ones.

Well, writing this has made me feel a little better. I'm hoping by now they are safe in a new coop and have settled in for the night. Bless them. May they live out their days finding bugs, eating grass and weeds to their hearts content.

I've relaxed a little

I want to leave for Rice Ranch in Arizona on December 1st or 2nd. Between now and then I have to buy a truck, pay for my trailer, set up solar, construct my office, unpack my belongings, finish moving out of my house, change my address everywhere, order a ton of things from Amazon and a bunch of stuff I can't think of right now.

Ha! Some might think I'm crazy. And they wouldn't be wrong, entirely. Being a little crazy is how I'm going to manage to make the changes I want. Actually, I think it would be really crazy to continue my life at it is, letting the same shit happen over and over again.

Thirteen years ago I bought this place thinking my family and I would live here for the rest of my life. Wow. Things change. I can't wait to be out from under the weight of this house and the fantasy that I could keep my sons and grandson protected from the hardships i saw in their future. I may have protected them from some hardships but they just created others for themselves.

i added to the problem by trying to help a homeless woman and her kids. She turned out to be a very toxic person. She caused many problems for us and the whole community. Long story. Suffice to say I almost lost this house and have been just getting by since. then.

I could keep going like this but it doesn't feel like a life anymore. And I need out from under my family. Portland is a very expensive place to live and I believe I would continue to get further and further behind the eight ball.

Here's the rub. I am blessed the have equity to use to restart my life. I know I'm blessed. There are many who are very much worse off than I.

Gotta go. Something's come up.

It's Monday and I am exhausted, stressed and so ready for this to be over

Believe it or not, i am trying to take it easy today. There is so much to do and I can't see my way to the end of it. I know it will get done (or I hope it will all get done) but there is so much.

I took Elvis to the vet today for a checkup and shots. I told the vet my plans, talked about the possibility of him getting Valley Fever, and then the big issue; his teeth.
I'm taking him back on Friday for a teeth cleaning ($600 please). Elvis was born in a puppy mill and did not have space for all his teeth when he was a young. The vet took out four teeth at 5 months old and may have to have another one removed Friday.

He'll be all ready to go after that. I also have his records being emailed to me in case i need them on the road.

I've got to make a couple phone calls. Maybe I'll post again later.

Is chinese food bad for you?

I am sooo tired. Busy with packing and runs to Goodwill. We have a dumpster to fill with yard debris and all my 'homestead' paraphernalia. I think I ate too much chinese food and now my arse is dragging.

Probably not a good decision. It's been a long time since I've had any and I've been watching my calories and exercising everyday. I didn't get on my bike yesterday and have not yet today. In fact, I think I will after this entry. I bet I'll feel better.

The problem of too much stuff continues. I imagine having a free rummage sale on the road but that's absurd. Kind of funny but also, I like the idea of giving the things I'm not ready to part with to others.

Gosh, I'm so tired. It's hard to keep writing.

Oh, I remember what i wanted to talk about. I am not a minimalist and I'm feeling some shame about that. The nomads I follow are basically minimalists. If you can live in a van you are a minimalist. I thought about a van but I want to craft and sew. I want to be able to ride my stationary bike and my rowing machine.
Those parameters excluded a van and a class C. I liked the idea of a class C because I could decide to drive away if I encountered trouble but I guess I not that afraid. I chose to buy a truck and trailer so I could transport my exercise equipment in the truck.

I'm making decisions without the benefit of experience and I'm kind of wondering what veteran nomads would think. I have watched a lot of how-to videos and read a couple books about nomad life. For example my solar plans and my decision to take so much.

Since when do I care what others think? Since always! I want to be independent and make my own way but I seek approval of others. Naturally; I am human and sociable. I like my time alone but I am not a recluse.

So, my friends, I'm going to do my best. And that will have to do.

Oh, I almost forgot. I made my reservations for a meetup event at Rice Ranch in Quartzsite AZ. I'm so excited for my first social event and to meet Debra Dickinson. She is hosting the event and has become a friend I haven't met yet. Any Warrior of Light friends who might be reading this will understand that concept. It is close to twenty years since we met 'offline' in Mexico.

Talk again tomorrow.

Still afraid to jinx my closing but...

I should know later today or tomorrow when I sign closing papers. Possibly Monday or Tuesday. A dumpster was delivered today. It’s amazing how much one can accumulate in 13 years. I’m working on my kitchen then the bath and the rest of my office. I had to run a payroll today, I’m doing laundry and , and, and. 

As soon as I close I have to run to the bank, buy a truck and settle things with the RV dealership. Oh, and we have to be out of here three days after closing. 

My head is spinning with all that needs to be done BUT the most important thing is that I became a mother 43 years ago today. I’m getting chinese food for everyone tonight to celebrate my son’s birthday. It will totally blow my diet but I’m looking forward to it anyway. 

Guess I better get some exercising in today as well. Gotta run. Literally. 

Still holding breath on you-know-what... and other 'things'

Still holding breath on you-know-what...

I'm having a bit of a panic. I've been getting rid of my possessions for months now. What I'm keeping fits in one room. There's more to put in that room though. It's going to be a lot, and that's why I'm in a panic.

You know, there's that whole 'spark your joy thing'. There's what you need, what you want and 'that thing'. I'm at 'that thing', that 'joy sparker'. The things i have that are memories, precious objects... They are the things that I treasure.

My mother's painting, my grandfather's big ole handmade box on little ole wheels. It's made of wood and brown paint. Plain as plain can be. In order to keep it, I have to give it a purpose. So the big-ole-handmade-painted-brown-box will have the purpose of holding my LIBRARY. Yes, I'm bringing a library. Get over it.

My mother's painting because...  My mother painted it, I love it, and want I to take care of it. Add it to my list of must-keep.

The apple green sweater my grandmother knitted. It has brassy buttons because that's what she had on hand. She probably got those buttons from a piece of clothing that she turned into a rag. But I also have another sweater my grandmother knitted that's burgundy with a zipper. AND I have a sweater my mother knitted. So there's that. Mind you, none of these sweaters are in color tones that match mine. And they're old fashion. I also have two sweaters made by machines that I really like.  Iye!  I realize this is not like Sophie's choice but jeez.

I have given a lot of these treasures to family and friends. My brother has agreed to hold a couple boxes of pictures and any other family treasures I can't keep. Especially if it's something of Mom's. There are these objects families hold onto because as soon as you let them go, the story of the thing is gone. It's no longer a memory object for someone. It's now something for Goodwill to redistribute. Someone will be completely oblivious to the memories it used to invoke.
I have several precious objects that I found at Goodwill so I always have hope that someone will buy my treasures and love them in their own way.

I know this is somewhere between silly and insane but I may never have some memories again. I won't get the reminder of the memory when the thing is gone. I won't tell the story of the thing, expecting a memory to be attached to it by another person. Then that person treasures it and takes care of it. Cherishes it. It remains a treasure.

I think it would be fun to write one of those books that follows an object from one person to another. Like Annie Proulx's "Accordion Crimes", or "The Sewing Machine" by Natalie Fergie.

I digress. I'm realizing the toughest part of downsizing is yet to come.

I'm not going to speak of the closing on my house because I don't want to jinx it. Hold your breath and cross you fingers and toes.

Took his selfie to day. It's been awhile since I put my mug in a photo but I thought Elvis would cute me up a little.

OK, just one more 'cause Elvis is so cute.

Poor Elvis is so bored. We walk everyday but it's not enough and the rainy season is upon us. He hates walking in the rain.
Not much to report today.  But I would like to ask for thoughts and prayers about you-know-what.
As I said, I don't want to jinx it but I may have something more concrete to report by the end of the week.
Talk at you tomorrow.

Well, today I promised to talk about my plans for solar. I have tried and tried to understand it and how it applies to van/RV dwellers. I pride myself on learning whatever I might want to learn. I have done it my whole life. But try as I might, solar and electrical systems have me stumped.

Despite my ignorance, this is my plan. I have found some Dokio 300 watt briefcase panels that I plan to buy (two of them). I am also buying two lithium batteries. I was advise to buy as much as I could afford so that's what I'm doing.

I know I need an inverter but don't know what kind for size and I think a converter is also necessary.

I have several reasons for the briefcase panels instead of panels that mount on the roof. First, I don't know how much space is up there and I not in love with the idea of putting holes in my roof. Also, I worry about damage to the panels from tree branches and such. Secondly, I'd like to park in shade if at all possible. The portable panels can be put in the sun. And another thing, I want 600-800 watts of power (again, buy as much as I can afford).

I'm selling my house and using the proceeds to prepare as best I can. That why I'm willing to buy lithium batteries and lots of watts.

My son works for an electrician on occasion, helping him erect signs and such. He has agreed to look at my set up but I don't know when that will actually happen so I'm organizing my system on my own until I get some advice.

I would love input from someone who knows what they're talking about. I have gone onto boards for help and been... how shall I put this nicely? I've been told my plan is bunk and that I should do what they say (which I don't understand). They suggested that mounting on my roof is what everyone does and that putting them out everyday and moving them all day long is too much trouble. Oh, and do I really need so much.

If it's a setup I'm willing to manage and I get the watts I want...

Ok, so I know I don't have a grip on what I talking about but if I am forced to figure it out on my own. I will and it may be inefficient but whatever. At least I'm trying and not just giving up.

Til tomorrow...

I did sign another closing date extension on my house sale but I'm not talking about that today. I'm going to show you some pictures and talk about my plans.

Elvis is ready to go. He loves this old carrier. He's telling me he wants to go somewhere. Notice it pinned together. The zipper broke so I pinned it. I have sewing skills but that would be a huge project so pins it is.

Here are a couple pics of the trailer I'm hoping to buy.

The bed is behind the sofa. It's more of a set up than I wanted but I will be able to peddle my stationary bike in front of the sofa if the weather is not good outside. The best part is the bunk bed area in the back. That will be my office. My son will take out the top bunk. I'll create a desk using a couple file cabinets and a board. I'm really excited about it.
It is bigger than I wanted but I couldn't get an oven unless I went a little over the size I wanted. It has a microwave that I will either take out or use for storage. I wanted an oven so I could do some baking. It's a hobby I enjoy and can share with others.
I'm doing this because I think I can live on my Social Security/Bookkeeping income this way. But this journey is also about going back to what I love; my hobbies. I love crafting, sewing and baking.
I also need to exercise everyday and that is why a trailer and not a class C or a van. I'll get a truck to haul my stationary bike and my rowing machine. I can also put some of my sewing supplies or my solar panels in the truck. I have a large box my grandfather made decades ago. It will serve as storage and make me think of him whenever I look at it. I'll also have my mother's sewing machine, fabric my grandmother passed to my mother and books that my dad and I both like to read.
I'm taking my family with me. My sons, Dad and brother will be following this blog and talking to me on the phone.

I hope this house deal will finally finish so I can get my home out on the road.

Jeez. I just don't know. I'm feeling so frustrated. Actually that's me trying not to be dramatic.  I'm boiling mad!

I talked to my agent today. There is ANOTHER problem with my house sale. It's not the loan officer this time. It's not the buyers agent this time. This time it's the appraiser. I just can't express to you how annoyed I am. No one can be held accountable. They can be incompetent and not be held accountable. They can cost me time, money and lost opportunity but get paid anyway.

The woman who is buying my house is a neighbor. She is a nice woman and I like her and her family. That's probably the only reason I continue to put up with all the crap. It's not her fault.

That said, I've set some conditions with my agent and on Friday I may pull out of the deal. I don't want to. I want to get on the road. I do not want to be driving south in December. I don't want to miss the meetup then. I've already missed one event I paid for so..... Grrr! I'm so frustrated. I'm not sure what to say except that I WANT SATISFACTION. I want someone to pay! I want people to see that the buyer and I are both being played without regard to our situations. They will all make money from this sale not caring one iota about what they have put us through.

Am I being too dramatic?

We wrote up a contract back on August 14th. This is simply outrageous. The thing is, if I back out of this deal on Friday, I may not make it south this winter. I had a backup offer but that person has moved on. Who could blame them. I've asked my agent to contact that person and others who showed interest earlier to see if they might still be interested. Best case scenario: I'm set back by 4 to 6 weeks. Worse case: January or February.

Ahhhh!!!!

I getting tired of writing about this so I'm going to call it quits. I'm feeling a little defeated. I thought writing about this woudl help but I don't think it has. I will say one thing. I will make it south one way or another.

Hey universe! I don't care what you want of me or how many blocks you put in my way. I am in charge of my life, not you. Screw you!! I'm going to do what I want. Do you hear me? I'm in charge!

Nothing new to report except "Hurry up and wait".

I am actually keeping fairly busy organizing the stuff I'm taking with me. I definately will not be able to call myself a minimalist. I have all my sewing/crafting supplies, office supplies and clothes. I've reduced my kitchen to what I'm taking but that will be a couple boxes. My supplies and clothes are in plastic containers. The kitchen stuff will be stowed away in the trailer so cardboard boxes will suffice for them.

Oh and then there's my books. I'm down to about 50 from 3000 but I think I can reduce that by a few more. My library has always been a point of pride for me. I'm filling up my Kindle using the Book Bub app. I've been doing that for a year or so but I've picked up the pace in the last 6 months.

I hear the oven timer going off so I'm going to end this post. Please comment with any questions you might have. I welcome them.

Oh, and please put your name in the comments. I'm not getting that info when I read them.

Til tomorrow.

Hey friends!

I should hear tomorrow more about the status of my home sale. There have been a lot of bumps in the road and I can't wait until the deal is done. Worse case scenario is that the deal falls through and my plans will be delayed. How long? I'm not sure but December is not a stretch for my departure.

That would... well you can imagine. I do not want to be driving south from Oregon to Arizona in December. I don't want to be doing the trip in November but I have no choice. I've mapped out a route that will avoid high mountain passes. My thinking is that I will be pulling a trailer for the first time in a truck that I will have just bought. No time for practice runs. i just have to get on the road and head south as fast as I can.

I'm going to drive east from Portland to The Dalles in the Columbia Gorge, then head south. That puts me on the east side of the Cascade mountains. From there I'll hit Bend, La Pine and Lakeview OR. Shortly after that I'll cross into California, hitting Susanville and heading to Reno. From there I'll work my way to Pahrump and then Quartzsite. I think it will take 4 or 5 days. It all depends on the weather.

The two big passes I will avoid are (1) out of Ashland OR into CA and (2) Donner Pass in CA going into Reno. They might be fine but I don't want the stress. I don't mind avoiding interstate highways either.

If you have an opinion or suggestions, I'm all ears. Please comment.

Talk tomorrow.

I did something yummy and bad (Isn't yummy always bad?)

I didn't get to the grocery store yesterday so I went for fast food this morning. That's bad for my diet. Bad, bad and very bad. But I love breakfast sandwiches.

To make up for my indulgence I had to exercise for an extra 45 minutes. I use the My Fitness Pal app to keep track of my food and exercise. The extra exercise allowed me a light dinner but no snacks later.

Ha. I'll live.  It's amazing how many calories fast foods have.

I've been packing for weeks and living out of boxes and plastic containers. But I hadn't done my desk until yesterday. I'm a bookkeeper and will be continuing my work on the road. I have some supplies and equipment that I probably don't need. But I'm taking it with me in hopes that they find homes with people out on the road who could use them. I have an extra keyboard and a mouse, as well as a monitor.

I have not been selling my belongings. I have been giving them away and I feel good about it. What's left of my kitchen is going with me and I think I can pack it in about 1/2 an hour. Same with the bathroom. I am so ready to go!

I've mapped out my route to avoid busy highways and mountain passes. I hope to get to Arizona in about 4 days. I wanted to take my time and smell the roses but the closing date on my house means i'm going to have to leave in late November. I pray the weather will cooperate (I pray the closing process will also cooperate and be kind to me).

OK. Enough for now. Maybe I'll post details of my route tomorrow.

Sooo frustrated!!

It looks like the closing on my house is delayed again. If I dump the deal, it could delay my departure by weeks. Ahg!!  So I'm sticking with it for now... but I so want to end this thing.

I'm trying to remain calm. I'm trying to tell myself that everything will work out. That there is a reason for all this. I'm trying not to be sarcastic.  That's my fallback position; that and anger.

One of the reasons I want to be on the road is that I want to deal with my anger. I need to be with myself and with others who understand that doesn't mean I want to be a hermit. I want to walk/drive away when people are getting to me.

Gotta go. Time to feed Elvis. Thank goodness for him.